After a lot of heartache and sadness, we decided to fill our home again with little paws running on the hard floor, kisses on our face, and the unconditional love only a dog owner would understand. Welcome home, Reid!
A few days after Eddie had passed, I decided to look at what Rat Terrier pups were available in our state for adoption. One of the first puppies that popped up is a pair shown below. Brothers from the same litter, Rat Terrier mixes, out of Fort Lauderdale. I instantly fell in love with the dog on the right, but thought how crazy would it be if we could adopt both brothers together? I talked to my husband, sat on it for a few days, and decided it was the right thing to do. My grief for Eddie and Lucky wasn’t going to go away, but the emptiness in our home needed to be filled. So I applied.
And then we waited. And waited. And waited. Finally several days later the adoption agency sent us an email saying both dogs were ‘pending.’ Then the next day I got an email that one of the brothers was adopted (the mostly black brother on the left). I immediately e-mailed them back inquiring about the remaining pup and if he was still available. No response. I figured it just wasn’t meant to be. Too soon. Bad timing. I applied to adopt a couple other dogs that I just kind of wanted to find out more information on, but wasn’t necessarily in love with. I knew it would just ‘adopting a dog’ of sorts. Both of those were adopted.
I pretty much decided at that point it was just bad timing and too soon. However, I was pretty bummed about it. I really, really wanted to bring this puppy home to us. So, I decided to be annoying and I re-applied. Haha. I figured, worst case I would just annoy the people working out of the rescue. I mean, c’mon – at least send an email response!
And days passed, still no response. My husband and I resorted to that maybe we weren’t ‘adopters’ and better suited for a breeder. I hated that idea, but I know there is a purpose for both. But I guess it was meant to be because last Friday evening, I randomly received an e-mail from the rescue group that Reid was still available and the first adopter didn’t work out! I was jumping for joy!
It all went so fast from there – I was off work for the entire weekend, so I had a FaceTime ‘interview’ so they could see my home on Saturday, approved Saturday evening, and drove 3 hours to Miami area by myself on Sunday to adopt this pup!
So, here we are – with our new pup, Reid! I actually kept his foster name. Him and his litter mates (there were 4 total that were rescued, it’s unknown what happened or if there was a larger litter) were all named after Criminal Minds characters. I liked it.
He’s 6 months old. Rat Terrier and assumed Italian Greyhound mix. He’s pretty big now, 30 lbs, and growing. His litter was picked up by a rescue in Alabama found stranded at 4-5 weeks of age without mom. They somehow were put in touch with the Fort Lauderdale rescue group and transported to foster this past December. I guess behavior-wise they were horrible. Aggressive with each other and other dogs, feisty, and out of control without mom around. Their foster mom did a fantastic job with them. Reid is pretty independent and a little stubborn, but he really just wants please. He loves his people and craves affection when he’s a good boy. Which he really is a good boy. He sleeps a lot – I think (or hope) growing again – but when he plays, it’s a safe play. He doesn’t chew, doesn’t bite, and I would say 100% potty trained.
Our only issue is socialization. He’s pretty good on walks (he had never been on a leash to walk before we brought him home), learning to sit, and behave when we see other dogs, but he’s timid of strangers. He also growled and struck out during a meet and greet with an older, larger dog at the dog park (he was fine with the little dogs). The first adopter didn’t work out because their “senior dog was too stressed”, so I kind of wonder if that dog didn’t lash out at him creating some fear.
However, we adore him and are willing to work through any issues he may have! I really love that the newer training methods are ‘positive reinforcement’ and not negative. He really responds well to positivity.
A dog trainer is scheduled to come our house this Wednesday for a training session, so hopefully she can provide us some exercises and how to create confidence and stability.
He’s so different from Eddie & Lucky, but also shares so many of the same traits. I miss them dearly still, and have fresh tears every time I think of them (like now! Lol), but I can say that Reid has definitely filled in a piece of my life that has been empty for almost a month now. I think they would approve. 💗
Another absence on the blog. I feel like I’ve had those frequently throughout the last year. Life has been full of ups and downs, especially in 2019. And to think it’s almost halfway over! For those that have followed this blog for awhile, either know me personally and knew what my absence was due to… others that don’t know me personally might have speculated. And I hope that this blog post brings closure. Brings peace. It’s been 11 days. We lost Eddie, our 2nd rat terrier on April 18th. We lost his sister (litter mate) on January 26th earlier this year (I posted what was hopefully a one time post for a very long time here). The Great Dane shown in the photo below – we gave to a friend years ago when no apartment complex in the town we moved to for pharmacy school would take 3 dogs, nor a Great Dane. We lied for as long as we could that we had “one terrier” and “a lab mix” – LOL. Our friend back in Indiana stepped forward who had another Great Dane and saw my worries on Facebook, and said they would take her if we wanted. I think she probably had the best life a Great Dane could ask for. She also passed away a couple of weeks ago (with our friend back home in Indiana).
So, why the title “I wanted a Corgi?” Well, that’s exactly how it started. I grew up with dogs. My mom had an older Doberman and an older cat when I was born. When I was about 5 years old, the cat passed away (peacefully in his sleep – why can’t they all go that way?!) and as things go in the 1980’s, we went to the local pet store to find a kitten. However, no kitten came home with us. We came home with a little mixed mutt puppy and I named him Tommy (after a kid I had a crush on in Kindergarten no doubt – ha!). He looked like a black Pomeranian. Hyper as could be, an ankle biter, and my best bud for over 17 years. He passed away when I was 22 years old. I was right in the height of my horse show career, and almost every horse trainer you knew had a Corgi. I mean, have you ever seen a Corgi shake their bum? They are pretty darn cute – you gotta admit! So, I decided I would slowly start to look for a Corgi puppy.
I went to a horse show over Thanksgiving weekend in Illinois back in 2004. There were several litters of puppies there and I was determined to find that Corgi pup! My trainer came back to the stalls and told me there was a litter of “rat terriers” I should go check out. I’m pretty sure I said something like “What is that“? 😂 Back then, the Rat Terrier breed wasn’t recognized by AKC or any other breed association. They have evolved over the years through breeding of the fox terrier, beagle, jack russell, and whippets to name a few.
Well, I agreed to go look at the puppies. It was a huge litter – maybe 10-12 puppies? All tri-color (black/white/tan)… all male… except one. One was all white with brown ears. A family had bred the litter and had an 8 year old daughter who said “That one is named Brown Ear”. I said, “He has a cone head. I don’t know if I want that one.” My horse trainer convinced me to pick him up. And that was that. I held Brown Ear in my arms and knew right then he was mine, and I was his. We later changed his name to Eddie because he looked so much like the Jack Russell from the sitcom Frazier, and also since he came from a horse show he was reminiscent of “Mr Ed.” It was the perfect name.
So, I came home with a Rat Terrier and not a Corgi. I made the best decision. I loved Eddie so much that I called the breeder a few months later to see if any puppies were left. The only female in the litter that was sold before the horse show where I found Eddie was up for sale (see previous post here).
Eddie truly lived a great life. Him and Lucky. A dog that was ball obsessed. Give him a tennis ball and he’s your best friend. He loved to swim, he loved to leap through the air, he loved life. But mostly he loved tennis balls haha.
His life came to an end rather suddenly, just like Lucky’s. And we fought so hard for him. I hate that we had to give up the fight. He had been battling cancerous soft tissue skin tumors for the last several years. We had 3 of them removed that I can specifically remember, but others were removed before we moved to Florida. Last summer, 2018, he started to randomly have muscle spasms in his back leg. He would at random ‘kick out’ like a camel kick of sorts. However, they were so at random and would occur maybe once every 2-3 weeks that our vet didn’t think much of it. After we lost Lucky in January, they suddenly became more frequent. We took him back to the vet who was worried he was suffering from a herniated/bulging disc or possible ACL tear. We took X-rays and his spine was perfect, especially for a 14 year old dog. She said X-rays aren’t always conclusive though and really an MRI should be performed. However, because of his age, she felt an MRI was unwarranted because surgery wasn’t likely a possibility, so we should try medicinal therapy first.
We immediately started Adequan (glucosamine) injections, laser therapy, and we were referred to a physical therapy vet. Before our first appointment with the physical therapy vet, Eddie suffered a “pain spell” on our nightly walk. He all of a sudden started panting, his back became weak, and he was having an incredibly hard time walking. We rushed him to the ER vet who still felt it could possibly be an ACL tear and also did not think an MRI was warranted. When we met with the physical therapy vet a week later, she truly felt it was back pain and disc related. We started him on muscle relaxant, nerve pain medication, and an anti-inflammatory. He seemed to get better as the weeks went by, but we were very careful to not let him jump on the bed, we only went for very short walks multiple times per day, and played with him on the floor without throwing any balls (we would take it from him and give it right back haha).
Looking back, did we make the right choice? Should we have had the MRI sooner? I struggle with the answer, because knowing what we know now, they may have taken his life much sooner.
Fast forward to April 17th, 2019. My husband was at home for the day. About 1:30pm he took Eddie outside to potty. He started to act funny in his back end, so my husband was worried he was having one of his pain spells (he continued to have the pain spells intermittently even with medication. Thankfully they were short lived and would last anywhere from 10-40 minutes). He brought Eddie inside immediately when all of a sudden Eddie lost complete use of his back legs. My husband called me (I was at work) and I told him, don’t even think about it, just get him to the ER vet. He could have torn the disc completely.
He raced him to the ER vet whom said what we were expecting – that it was likely the disc(s) were slipped further than they were prior. Again, it was impossible to say without an MRI. Eddie was in SO much pain guys, so much. He was howling on the way to the ER vet. My husband called me on the trip and it was all I could bear to be stuck at work and not be there with him. I told the ER vet that we wanted to move forward with an MRI. I needed to know. Something didn’t feel right. Even if he wasn’t a surgical candidate, I still needed answers.
The next morning, April 18th, Eddie was transported via ambulance to the only neurologist locally. The entire staff was amazing. We sat with Eddie on the office floor for 2 hours weighing all of our options and got the opinions of both neurology vets – a husband and wife team – whom said even IF it’s a disc problem, surgery is still an option. He could be walking in 2 days. Age is just a number. However, it could be his cancer spread to the spine. It could be he had a stroke. But we won’t know without the MRI.
At this point we were hopeful. We moved forward with the MRI. Little did we know, the results were not what we were expecting. The neurology vet’s office called us back 2 hours later. Eddie was not a surgical candidate and we needed to come back for a consult.
The neurologist sat us down in his office and we proceeded to go through each and every MRI slide. Eddie’s spine was perfect. There was no slipped disc. No herniated or bulging disc. Cartilage was good. No breaks. No bone spurs. Nothing. That’s where the neurologist said he had to go through each and every organ to find out the answer.
And that’s where we found it. His heart. Eddie had a clot in his aorta. The largest artery in the body. 80% occluded. 80%! The clot was huge. It was also very long. The MRI showed Eddie’s back legs were incredibly inflamed. Essentially he wasn’t getting enough circulation to his legs, which created an immense amount of pain and muscle breakdown due to lack of oxygen and build up of toxins. So, a clot? Ok. What kind of clot busters do we have for dogs? Can we remove it? Can we place a stent? What do we do?
The neurologist said we needed to get him back to critical care. His kidneys weren’t perfusing, causing the muscle breakdown and also pancreatitis. Step 1. He said at that point we can start treatment. He still felt hopeful at this point. He said ‘the only thing you can’t come back from is euthanasia.’ That stuck with me.
We transported him back via ambulance to the ER vet. My husband and I still held out hope this was all going to be okay. We waited for the vet to admit him again and call us with a treatment plan. We got the call about 2 hours later. The critical care vet was very grave. She gave us a list of options (mind you – there are no dog specific related treatment options – we would need to have a prescription filled at our local pharmacy, pick it up and take back to the vet office). And all 3 options – heparin, low molecular weight heparin (Lovenox), and oral anticogulant (Xarelto) did not have safe monitoring parameters in dogs. So, basically, Eddie could bleed out. Also, we don’t know why he is clotting. So even if we treat the one clot and he does well for a couple weeks, the same scenario could happen again. And the likely culprit was cancer. However, the chemotherapy had stopped working the year prior, so we were out of chemotherapy options as well.
I think I almost hit the floor at this point. I just knew. I knew it was time. That moment when you have fought so hard for him, and he’s fought so hard for you. I could tell my husband didn’t want to give up, especially after the neurology vet had been so hopeful. But I knew it wasn’t giving up. It was our gift to Eddie. He was in so much pain. He had a Fentanyl patch on his neck to control the pain. A pain reliever only recommended for terminally ill and cancer patients.
And so this is where we said goodbye. I hope Eddie recognized us that night when we went back to the ER hospital for the last time and I held him til he took his last breath. I hope he’s in peace now and pain-free. I’m not a religious person, but if there is one place I want to believe there is a heaven, is for dogs. His death has been incredibly hard. I cried on and off for days. 11 days later and I’m doing better, but daily tasks are sometimes still hard. Our house is so quiet now that it’s dog free. So sterile. It’s horrible. Lucky’s death was sudden also, but if you read her story, you know that although she went into heart failure, she also had a liver mass the size of a melon growing inside her small tummy. The decision was easier (not easy… but easier…) for her as she was truly suffering. After doing my own research on aortic clots in dogs, I do feel more at peace with our decision with Eddie. Aortic clots are incredibly rare (one article I read said they only occur in 0.0005% of dogs!), and only recent studies since 2016 have published retrospective studies of dogs with known aortic clots since 2010 and treatment methods. Xarelto was only used from treatment starting in 2016. Eddie would have been a science experiment of sorts if we had moved forward with treatment. And I would have hated myself forever had he died from bleeding out internally due to our desperation of keeping him here with us.
I created a memorial in our house below for both dogs. It’s nothing huge, but it sits right on the wall next to my side of the bed in our master bedroom. I wake up and see them every morning. I pinned their most recent set of collars in a shadow box and painted their paw prints with the colors we used most for all their harnesses, collars, and backpacks. Their individual ashes are in each little box. The ER vet provided those services for us, and I highly recommend the private cremation and paw print for your own pet – it has brought a lot of peace having both with me.
So, I’ll end this blog post by saying I wanted a Corgi, but ended up with two of the most fun-loving, high-spirited, and best little dogs I could have ever wished for. And if you’ve made it to the end of this blog post, thank you. It helps me to write these things out. A diary of sorts. A glimpse into my life, and one of the biggest parts of my life.
We plan to now rescue a dog or two in the near or far future. I figure it will happen when it’s meant to be. I actually found a pair of rat terrier brothers to adopt about 3 hours from where we live. I applied for adoption, and received an email the next day that one of the dogs was already adopted, but I’m waiting to hear back about the other. I’ve also inquired to other rescue organizations about other dogs, but waiting for responses. Apparently adopting a dog isn’t an easy process, but it could be it’s not the right time for us either. I’m letting fate take it’s course. Eddie and Lucky were both unexpected, and a life gift I will never forget. I expect our next dog(s) will happen in a similar manner.
Thank you friends, for all the love & support if we’ve already spoken about Eddie in days prior. Eddie has received more cards at our house then I think we received Christmas cards from friends & family this year haha! All from his team of medical staff and caretakers. He was well loved.💗
Blogging will probably be a little slower coming up the month of May, but I have more determination and inspiration than I’ve ever had to hopefully make this space part of my ‘career’ and not just a hobby in the future. I have a lot of older posts from 2-3 weeks ago that never made it to the blog that I will start to post over the next few days, and then pick back up next week or the week after.
Hi guys! The Nordstrom Spring Sale is in full swing! There are some fantastic buys available right now! Wear-now items if you live up north where it’s still a bit chilly, or wear-later items if you are looking for closet staples like the coveted Tory Burch Miller sandal! I picked out my favorites from the sale using some of my most-loved brands – Vigoss denim, Caslon tops, Kendra Scott & Baublebar jewelry, Vince & Sam Edelman shoes, and Sole Society, Madewell, and Rebecca Minkoff bags ~ I used items to create outfit inspiration below!
Lots of spring new arrivals dropped today from J.Crew Factory! All 50% off and if you spend $100, you can get an extra 20% off with code ‘SPRINGUP‘. I fell in love with so many pieces, I created a few outfits with all the items I love!
Guys, I haven’t shopped Ann Taylor in awhile ~ they are usually too ‘dressy’ for my wardrobe these days, but the new arrivals in their spring line are gorgeous! I love all 3 skirts – even the pencil skirt (which I miss dearly for work!). The jeans are on trend and although it’s been several years since I’ve owned a pair of AT jeans, they were always fantastic quality. And hello gimme all the pink! 😍
Everything is 50% off with code SPRINGTOIT + free shipping!
Every year, Pantone releases their ‘color of the year’ based on analysis of current trends, which then influences product color released in stores. This year, the big pick goes to ‘Living Coral!’ Always a spring favorite, I’m pretty excited about this one! Lots of coral color has been released in stores recently, and I wanted to share my favorite finds here on the blog. Below are a few outfit inspirations using my favorite coral color options available!
Hi guys! Whew – I just finished a whirlwind of a work stretch! I was originally scheduled 7 days in a row starting last Tuesday, which amounted to ~65 hours in the week. Another pharmacist was looking to pick up hours in our district, so I happily gave up my shift last Wednesday. I figured, hey I can do this now. Then the stomach bug took my husband down this past Friday and our dog got really sore on one of his back legs on Sunday, so we ran him to the ER vet (after losing Lucky a few weeks ago I’m overly paranoid!). Unfortunately, that vet thinks he may have a partial ACL tear in his leg, which honestly stinks. He’s been depressed (he’s eating, just overly cranky) after losing Lucky. We started a couple supplements to help his overall wellness, and tried acupuncture last week to no avail. He wasn’t having the needles (I don’t blame him!). Anyway, back to the vet we go later on today for a referral to an orthopedic vet. Husband is doing better. I think I got a slight version of whatever stomach bug took him down, and after all that work I’m BEAT. I cancelled my trip to see the horses today, and decided a nice quiet day up until the vet appointment this afternoon is just what I needed.
I missed out on all the President’s Day sales, but honestly guys – they were just normal sales. And I’ve noticed when they throw the normal sales at you that happen all the time anyway, that means they are getting ready to release better stuff the next week and then they usually have a better sale + free shipping LOL! So anyway, I guess of all the good holiday sale weekends, this was as good as any to work through.
So, I sat down this morning and thought about what to write about here on the blog for spring. You’ve probably noticed I tried last week focusing my time here more on creating actual blog written posts. Not outfit posts, and I saved the roundups for the end of the week. I tried so hard for so long just to become an ‘outfit blog’, but honestly that gets boring after awhile. I love styling outfits and creating new color combinations, but hey if I’m going to make my blog different, then why not write about it? So anyway, I hope you guys are enjoying the posts with more of a “visual” look with verbiage in between.
Leopard in Spring:
I mentioned awhile ago I’ve seen leopard pop up in stores more-so lately then in the fall. I’m still having a hard time wrapping my head around buying a new leopard top or sweater, but ahh it’s wearing on me. The accessories are getting me the most! In today’s blog post I wanted to share with you all the new leopard items for spring! Some stores have put their own spin on items, like lightweight tops, or different colors then brown/black which make the print more ‘spring-like.’ Like I said…. it’s growing on me! But, I guess if you stare at something long enough that happens?
Since the accessories are my favorite (fun, but not over-done?), I picked out my favorites below! And one leopard top. 🙂
How to style each piece? Go crazy and call it Kimmy Gibler style! Or… make it the best part of your outfit and wear a simple white top and blue denim/black pants. Or pull out a bold top like teal or poppy red for spring and wear it opposite of the leopard piece (i.e. leopard earrings with white top and colored flats…. or bold sweater with white/blue jeans and leopard flats). How to style the tie-neck scarf? Don’t wear it around your neck! Tie it around your wrist and make it a bracelet. 🙂
Continuing this week’s theme of all things spring and getting you ready for spring break or if you live down south – just warmer weather (finally!). I say this as I’m stuck inside all day due to rain and a low in the 40s tonight. Brrr. Ready for this Florida weather to get here!
I picked out some of my favorite spring new arrivals at Nordstrom for today’s blog post. Nordstrom has 3 in house brands that are my ‘tried and true’ go-to for trendy, quality pieces. Their .bp, Caslon, and Halogen lines are my favorite. BP is technically their junior line and is sometimes hit or miss with quality and fit. The line is designed for a slender junior type fit, and so I usually stick with tees and basic pieces. Caslon is a little more expensive, but still affordable price point with most pieces ranging from $35-70. Halogen is the most expensive with a lot of work friendly pieces available and tends to start around $50. Both tops below are under $50! The polka dot top is Caslon and striped top is Halogen. Both come in other color/print options.
The earrings are both a trendy option. Fans and hoop designs will be big this spring/summer. I love the floral texture on the pink earrings! Both earring pairs come in other color options. Leopard seems to be holding strong this spring also! I’ve seen leopard tops in lighter weight material pop up in a lot of stores, and while I’m not sure I can get on the full leopard train during spring….. it IS a neutral, so I will embrace my accessories. 🙂 The sandals listed below seemed to sell out really fast! I made this graphic last weekend, and just like that they’re gone! I linked the sandals in a darker color still available. Seach ‘coconuts’ on Nordstrom’s website, or click on the brand link after looking at the sandals below – they come in a ton of different design/color options. All extremely affordable and seem to get 4/5 star reviews. Check out these slides – They are only $30 and come in 12 colors! Reviews are hit and miss. Some people loved them, some said the fit was off and hurt their feet. For $30 I think I might try these once we are officially into sandal weather!
This week on the blog I’m featuring a lot of new spring arrivals ~ and I of course had to include swimsuits! I live in Venice, FL which is in Sarasota County and you might be familiar with a little beach called Siesta Key. One of the top destinations for spring break and vacations! I feel like I need to start taking advantage of this and show you how I shop best – for summer style of course! 😉
I’m always on the lookout for new swimsuits. We haven’t been able to go to the beach for quite some time because of the effects of Red Tide, but it’s finally starting to clear. We actually ran to dinner last night on Venice Beach, but the wait at our fave restaurant was 75 minutes! Everyone else down here must be thinking the same thing as us!
That being said, I haven’t purchased a new swimsuit since we moved down here (3 years ago). However, I’m feeling the beach again finally and excited to spend some time there this spring/summer. Old Navy has released some of the cutest (and affordable) swimsuits lately. I saw the seersucker (top left) version in store a couple weeks and now I regret not going back for it. I now have the seersucker and blue swimsuits in my shopping cart ‘wish list’. And today I noticed they are 25% off (no code required).
Where do you shop for swimsuits? Most of mine are from J.Crew Factory. If you have a favorite brand please share!